when i thought you were gone

Why do you feel as if the only option is the darkest?

Why is my screaming and pleading not enough to help you see.

How dare you take such an easy route out,

To leave me drowning in a mess that was created by you.

Why does everyone take your side when you’re wrong

But why is no one by your side when you need them?

I wish someone had given you help a long time ago,

And things for you might have been different.

But then maybe we wouldn’t have met,

Because then you wouldn’t have needed me,

I wouldn’t have had to be needed, to help you find your soul

But in the process of me trying to heal your wounds

I became wounded.

Now how can I heal

Without me seeing you smile for real

What can I do –

If you’re not here to help fix all the pain that you caused

You didn’t mean it, I know

You couldn’t control it, I know

You can’t stand yourself anymore, I know –

But that doesn’t mean that it didn’t hurt me.

God, it hurt so bad.

It still never stopped love flowing through every inch of my bones.

It didn’t matter what happened, what you did,

You were that white angel you wanted to be

In my eyes, I was blind to what was wrong.

Even if the whole world was against you

It was always me and you against the crazy world.

But what if we were crazy?

They do say that love is blind

Plus I didn’t even notice my whole world was crashing down on me

It was ride or die

Me and you

You and me

Forever we were supposed to be.

Promises were made that were supposed to be for life

But now it’s just me

Because you couldn’t live with the hurt that you imposed on me

You say your in a better place

Floating in the clouds with fairy dust and smoke

I can imagine you with a stupid grin

Laughing at me for falling on the floor.

You used to tell me,

How can a place be good if we aren’t there together?

I really damn believed every single word you said

Sometimes promises are too hard to keep

When the world is against you what can you do but sleep

But why be a coward,

A word you couldn’t stand to be called

I believed that two souls entwined were powerful

I believed in magic

Now it’s as if all we can do is set fire to the rain.