profound

I was startled, frightened even

I didn’t know how to cope without your existence in this world

I sat on top of you, face to face.

My arms linked around your neck and my legs wrapped around your waist.

I held onto you with my life.

If you let go, we both let go.

Our lips make love in their own way and crash into each other like burning hot coals

I gasp, begging you for more

I’m supposed to hate you

What is it that you do; I don’t understand

I’m sinking and I’m falling

Deeper for you, deeper into you, but you won’t just let me slip

You wouldn’t ever let me leave –

But you can’t stop something which is far beyond your control

It was agonising, the day to day ratio of crying and then asking for more

I had to go. I had to be all alone

I couldn’t cope anymore it doesn’t matter if I’m lost on my own.

You were my life and you were just as unfair as it

But you only saw me as a bitch rather than something to take care of and now you’ve lost it

Your diamond in the rough.

I cling onto every last scent of you

The good, and the bad

I wrapped myself around your figure and smoked the shame away, knowing it’ll be our last

I woke up desperately opposed

Fearing for my life and yours

The entire time you held the power when I had the power to close an entire chapter

It scared and shocked the both of us

A different life from here on after

I don’t know if you really tried to drown that day I left

Or perhaps you wished I blew up somewhere so that I would meet my death

I don’t know if you wish for me to be happy

But I still wish you all the luck

I hope you learned all that I could give you was something no one could ever give you.

It will never be enough.

Although, really I hope she is enough

In your tangled sheets of lust

The memories I reflect them in mirrors,

I now enjoy smashing mirrors up

I hope you’re happy cause you changed me into something I swore I’d never become

Disappointing me, I’m sorry I don’t care

But that’s what comes along when you break a fragile heart that is drowning under swallowed tears